Monday, November 15, 2010

Daddy's Birthday

For quite some time, my husband has been desiring to have his own "mancave-like" space. Today, was the day that he decided to clean out an old office area and make it his own. Upon cleaning out the office, I came across an old tape player and when I saw it I became immediately annoyed and shook my head  thinking "....more junk.... maybe we can sell it on craigslist..."

About an hour later we came across some of my father's taped sermons and I felt compelled to listen. Moments later my niece walked in and my father's voice came on the audio tape. She asked, "Is that him?" as sounds of a familiar voice filled the room. I had to listen hard because I was unsure. As I focused for a moment on his words I realized that it was his voice. His baratone notes sounded so full of life and his words of wisdom instantly brought a calm to my soul.

It has been at least ten years since I heard the sound of his voice. I miss him desperately, and it took everything within me not to cry upon hearing his sermons.

Today is his birthday and I will forever remember it in my heart because I'll always be daddy's little girl. I'll miss him forever, but his words have brought me so much peace today.

Happy Birthday Daddy.

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Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Change the World

Growing up, I thought I could change the world. I was certain of it. I thought of nothing else. It was my destiny. There was nothing else. I thought attending law school, becoming a lawyer was what I would do. It was all that I would do. I was certain of it. There was nothing else. I was beyond confident because in my mind there was no other option. It was destined, so therefore it should be. It would be, as it was supposed to be because there was nothing else.

I found love young. I lived for love. There was nothing else. It was as it should be. It was destiny. I lived for love. Love knows no regrets. I wake up in love. I fall asleep in love. I bathe in love. I eat love. I even  love pee love. Since finding love. There has been nothing else. It is as it should be. It is as it was destined to be, because there is nothing else.

Even in my certainty, there has been uncertainty. My relationship with God has always been. It was as it should be - infinite.

One feeling that I have always felt - I am here to do something. It is my destiny. I tango with this feeling I pray to God to show me the light. Inside I know he has already shown me the path - but I tango nonetheless. I am talented to a fault. I am a dreamer to a fault. I exist even if only for a moment in time.

I know I am here to change the world. I know it. I know I am here to impact someone somehow. I am certain of it. I think of nothing else. It is my destiny. There is nothing else.

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Friday, March 19, 2010

Life is Always Teaching

 Things to Remember (A Note to Self):

Everything that you felt was going to happen this week did indeed happen. Tread carefully and trust your intuituon - it's freakishly surprising.

Your hair likes oils, but your nose doesn't always like the smell of the oils.

Your hair does respond well to the bantu knot out method (the bantu knot out is the ideal curling method for your hair). Double-strand flat twists leave it crimpy, but much is to be desired. curling the hair on rods is simply unsucessful on both blow outs and dry hair.

Take a moment and appreciate those around you for all that they are and all that they do.

Be more careful with things online.

Finally, everyone that you thought you know is now who you think they are sometimes they are not nice at all. Sometimes, those who you think you know, but pay no mind to are even more kind than you thought.

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Sunday, March 14, 2010

Sister

Some tattoo covered makeup artist called me "sister" today. Odd. Shocking. Upsetting. She was no sister of mine. I am black. She is not.

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Thursday, March 4, 2010

Happy 25th Birthday to ME, World!

Happy 25th Birthday to ME, World!

It's official! Even though I knew this weeks ago, even at 25, it's official that the world does not revolve around me - not even for one day - not just any day - MY Birthday.

And somehow I've been sucked into another family dinner-- just like the ones that I hate. There's still some glimmer of hope for this weekend.

Happy Birthday to me!


On Second thought F the Bull S. It's MY BIRTHDAY and I'm going to enjoy every minute of it (what's left of it anyway).

*signing off as fierce and 25 years *


Kari

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Happy 25th Birthday to ME, World!

It's official! Even though I knew this weeks ago, even at 25, it's official that the world does not revolve around you - not even for one day - not just any day - YOUR Birthday.

And somehow I've been sucked into another family dinner-- just like the ones that I hate. There's still some glimmer of hope for this weekend.

Happy Birthday to me!


On Second thought F the Bull S. It's MY BIRTHDAY and I'm going to enjoy every minute of it (what's left of it anyway).

*signing off as fierce and 25*


Kari

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Monday, February 22, 2010

Almost 25

I'm almost 25.   am not exactly sure what I have to show for it. My greatest fear is one of my deepest desires.  I struggle everyday to be free. I'm not sure why I have chosen this path, but at the time it seemed like a good idea.

It's unfair. Everyone puts extrinsic value on what you do, rather than who you are. Perhaps that's a greater problem in our culture. Is the content of your soul or your desire not as important as your income? What exactly are we saying? I love to learn. I love to learn about the things that I love to learn. I just don't want to be boxed.  I want to breath.

My best friend is my husband. I'm almost 25.

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Friday, February 19, 2010

Reality

Every morning you wake up and make a choice. It is those choices that effect your happiness.

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Sunday, January 17, 2010

Tonight

Great weekend with my family.

But tonight.
 

Some people just don't get it. Leave me the hell alone.


Boom... Boom... TICK!!!

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